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This blog is an outlet for my frustration, joy, anger, and otherwise random thoughts.
If you don't like, you don't read. Simple, no?
I love comments. Do you love commenting? We're a match made in heaven.
I generally like to give the impression of being more complicated than I actually am.
I'm addicted to chocolate, johnny depp, and anything signed by tolkien.
among other things.
I sleep long hours when I can, and bring stephen with me practially anywhere I go.
stephen is my canon d1000.
when I grow up, I plan to become rich and famous. or a pirate, if you will.
my goal in life is to get a yellow elephant.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009 7:19 AM
well, I fell in love with the world in you.
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isn't it ironic that this should be my 100th post on this blog?
ironic, because I have come to say goodbye. [no, this is not a sucicide note.] I've had this blog since... March 2007. That's this particular blog, of course, I've had others before that I think. I suppose I should be somewhat embarrassed that I've only managed 100 post in all this time, but somehow I'm not. not all times are blogging times, and not all things are blogging material. but I've tried to blog as regularly as possible, sometimes failing spectacularly.
I think that, however fond I may be of this blog, that sometimes we have to move on. and now is one of those times. these are new days, and they call for a new blog. which is why I have relocated to this particular new venue. I quite like it. you can't comment, but I don't suppose that'll be a problem :]
finally a special note for christina: I feel a bit bad about abandoning this blog when you're making me a special layout, but I've decided I'll use it on the norwegian blog.
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I won't delete this blog, but I doubt I'll post here again. thanks for the good times, y'all. stay beautiful :]
I guess I should say thank you, for cutting all my strings. But if it's all the same to you, I wish you'd left my wings.
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I think I might have the swine flu. I wouldn't be surprised if I did, anyway. But I was never any good at finding out whether I have a fever, so I'm not sure how I'll know I've got it if I do. ohwell.
Mom and dad brought me birthday presents today, even though my birthday's not for another eight days. They were passing by, and I won't see them again before my birthday, so today was the only chance. One was wrapped, so I won't get to know what that is until the actual day, but the other one was a bit too big for them to bother wrapping it. It's a chair, from ikea. Exactly what I'd wished for :] happyface. It looks somewhat like this. I think... I haven't actually removed it from the box yet.
Tomorrow, I plan to go into town and see if I can find a dress. I need a new dress for Christmas. I might end up just borrowing one from my sister, but it's always nice to go looking for dresses. I found a few good options online, now I just need to go try them on. Hopefully they'll look as good on me as they do on the models...
Finally, I'd just like to point out that this is my 99th post, so next time I have to come up with something good to celebrate the fact that after about two years [or some such] I've finally rounded 100 posts. Wish me luck. It might take some time...
And while I generally don't like snow, I'm having this feeling. This feeling that I would really like to go outside and twirl around in the gently falling snow. And I want you to come and twirl with me, or maybe just stand there, and smile at me. I want you to smile because you're happy that I'm happy, and because you care about me. And because you care about me you'll think I look beautiful, because feeling loved makes one look beautiful.
And I don't even like snow.
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i wish you were here to find me, smile, drag me out dancing, soft smile sliding out the syllables of my name in reproach, except, maybe you don't go out dancing? that's okay by me, i could be all dressed up and we could sit in your room and talk about art and smile shyly at each other and wonder how we will ever cross that divide to the first kiss. maybe it'd be nice to cross that huge divide. i like the idea that you'd be there, on the other side of it, waiting for me.
quote from itsonlythewind [today the quote is the one at the bottom...]
may the wind always be at your back, and the sun always upon your face, and may the wings of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars.
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I'm sorry for appearing to be dead lately. I'm not, honestly. Obviously. If I were, I wouldn't be typing this... Anyroad.
I'm in a bad state of mind right now. And it isn't very pleasant. And maybe I'm reading too much into this, but it does feel a bit hopeless. See, a certain person [I won't mention names, it wouldn't be very nice of me] kind of stopped talking to me a while ago. I suppose we sort of drifted apart, each of us busy with her own life. I didn't think that much of it, it's the kind of thing that happens. But then I wanted to make an effort to get to talking again, and was met with what felt like indifference. I thought 'well, she's just busy. She'll come around'. Except she didn't. Every attempt to reach out was met with hasty answers or pure indifference. So I thought I should let her take her time, and she'd come around eventually. So far she hasn't, and I'm getting tired of waiting. As I said, I've probably got this all wrong, but it just doesn't feel so great to be forgotten by someone you once counted as one of your best friends.
Sorry for wallowing. And sorry if I seem petty and egoistic. I guess I'm just feeling somewhat lonely.
The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can toleratenot knowing… not healing, not curing… that is a friend who cares.
and if only for a second, i wish i could be the air that inhabits your lungs. i wish i could be that necessary.
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I think I sleep longer nights than most people here. I normally go to bed somewhere between 11 p.m. and 1 a.m. and I get up around 7.30 a.m. So I really don't understand why I'm always so insanely sleepy. Lately I've been struggling to stay awake in classes, and I can easily sleep an hour or two during the day. Surely there is something wrong with me...
Okay, so maybe there isn't actually anything the matter with me. But it's still bothering me. Believe it or not, being sleepy all the time isn't all that much fun.
So I haven't really been doing that much lately. School's still quite alright. Fall break's coming up in a week though, it'll be good I think. I look forward to going home for a while, and seeing my parents. The last weekend I'll be visiting a friend from high school with two others from high school whom I go to school with this year as well, and that'll be great :D Can't wait to see her again.
I'd upload some pictures, but internet is kinda slow. If you have facebook, you can see them there ;)
